half-moon

so i did my dialogue in front of the boss yesterday. me, and danielle, and kara, and straud. and of course we all kicked ass :) we  got to the lecture hall early and got in line, because people have been fighting for a spot. the way we figured was it was close to the end, and we definitely didn't want to have to stress about it all weekend, our only free time!! 

surprisingly i was nervous, even though i know the dialogue and have done tons of public speaking. but for as much as you know the dialogue like the back of your hand, when you get onstage in front of bikram and 300 others who also know the dialogue - verbatim - your brain turns onto autopilot and you can hardly consciously think of what is coming out of your mouth. i made no mistakes, didn't forget any of the instructions, but a few times had to stop for a second and find where i was and what came next. onlstage you are living so much in the moment, the 'right now', that you can't really remember what you've already said (or not said!). find the balance between thinking and speaking. unlike most other things in life, you can't really think before you speak!! you just have to know - and go from there. 

i vocalized this observation to danielle and kara, and kara said that that is one of the most beautiful things about yoga, and especially this yoga. it brings out your true nature. the dialogue comes out so fast once you know it, and it becomes second nature. then who you truly are, your personality and caring for the others in the room really come forth through your tone, inflection, and feeling.  

the boss stopped me after "hips  more forward, upper body back more, weight in the heels" with a resounding "stop! that's enough. perfect. no correction." :) then he proceeded to ask the room "do you know why she has so much energy?" and of course everyone starts shouting out different things they think he wants to hear, to which he replies, "no. its because she massaged me." haha. i said, "of course! you have such great energy that i internalized it and held onto it for two months."